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Meet my new nephew

2007-04-29T09:35:00.000-07:00

Eric Craig Nyce
April 27, 2007

Total Chic Movie

2007-04-05T07:59:00.000-07:00

What else could a WOMAN ask for. Hot, dirty, and sweaty men running around half naked. Yeah baby! I'm still having wet dreams! I give it 4 and a half stars.

The Second Coming

2007-03-30T02:12:00.000-07:00

The Second Coming
Turning and turning in the widening gyre
The falcon cannot hear the falconer;
Things fall apart; the centre cannot hold;
Mere anarchy is loosed upon the world,
The blood-dimmed tide is loosed, and everywhere
The ceremony of innocence is drowned;
The best lack all conviction, while the worst
Are full of passionate intensity.

Surely some revelation is at hand;
Surely the Second Coming is at hand.
The Second Coming! Hardly are those words out
When a vast image out of Spiritus Mundi
Troubles my sight; somewhere in sands of the desert
A shape with lion body and the head of a man,
A gaze blank and pitiless as the sun,
Is moving its slow thighs, while all about it
Reel shadows of indignant desert birds.
The darkness drops again; but now I know
That twenty centuries of stony sleep
Were vexed to nightmare by a rocking cradle,
And what rough beast, its hour come round at last,
Slouches towards Bethlehem to be born?

W.B. Yeats
The Dial 1920

For what it's worth

2007-03-29T12:35:00.000-07:00

A song from the movie sound track "Walk on Water". An excellent movie.

Just a thought!

2007-03-18T09:59:00.000-07:00

Evil exists. I believe that.

It's very important to have a good sense of who you are and not be jerked around by other people and their opinions of you.

FireTunnel

2007-03-18T09:55:00.000-07:00

Ok FireTunnel, I'm going to finally post again.

2007-02-18T08:46:00.000-08:00

Hashy birthday to me,
Hashy birthday to me,
I look like a hasher,
And I smell like one too.
Drink it down, down, down . . .

Basque

2007-02-03T13:59:00.000-08:00

"What is, then, this ancient people whose traditions celebrate unflagging valour and which, even in our times, has given so often proof of its heroism? Where do they come from? What is their relation to the other inhabitants of Europe and the rest of the world? These are impossible questions to answer.

The Basques are the mysterious race par excellence. They are alone among the multitude of the rest of mankind. They have no known family."

Elisée RECLUS
French writer and geographer (183O- 19O5)

Introduction to Basque History

Although the Basques were probably inhabiting the area they now do since the stone age, our oldest historical records come from the time of the Romans. Around 75 B.C., the Romans established the city of Pamplona as a regional centre. The Basques seem to have come down from the hills to trade with the Romans, but the Romans seem never to have extended actual control of the Basques living in the hills. The Basques living on the plain around Pamplona probably adapted to the Roman presence, but we don't know to what extent.

Around A.D. 830 century A.D., toward the end of the tumultuous period that followed the collapse of the Western Roman Empire, the Kingdom of Navarre (Nafarroa in Basque), centred in Pamplona, came into being. Originally this kingdom covered all of modern Navarre, plus the three Vascongadas (Gipuzkoa, Bizkaia, Araba), the modern French Basque country, and into neighbouring areas in modern Spain. Navarre was not conquered by the moors. Navarre was probably not a "Kingdom of the Basques", but it was a kingdom whose dominant ethnic group were the Basques.

Through the high and late middle ages Navarre gradually lost bits of its territory through various dynastic marriages and inheritances. Between 1200 and 1332, the three Vascongadas placed themselves in allegiance to the crown of Castille. By 1500 the Basques lived in three kingdoms: Navarre, Spain, and France. In 1515 Navarre was divided and absorbed into Spain and France along the current border (more or less).

In Spain, the Basques, especially those of the Vascongadas, retained special "fueros", privileges of self-governance and local assemblies for that purpose. The Basques were not individually subjects of the crown, but rather as a group subject to the crown (as long as they resided in the Vascongadas). In the 1800's a series of civil wars were fought in Spain (the "Carlist Wars") between factions who either sought to retain the medieval legal structure of Spain, or to reform it using the principles of the French Revolution. Rural Basques sided with the more conservative faction of King Carlos V in order to preserve the fueros. They lost. Many Basques fled Spain after these conflicts.

The loss of the fueros became more critical under Francisco Franco because he sought to take the integration of the different liguistic minorities in Spain one step further. He wanted total Castillianization. Catalan, Galician, and Basque were to be eradicated. After the death of Franco, King Juan Carlos and the Spanish Parliament established a system of autonomous regions that restored the fueros in spirit, if not in every detail.

During the time of the Carlist Wars, a "bertsolari" (wandering minstral) named Jose Mari Iparraguirre wrote a song about the famous oak tree that stands in Gernika. It is the traditional site of the gathering of the councils that goverened the Basques under the old system. That song, "Gernikako Arbola" has become the national anthem of the Basques. It is quite a long song, but here is the first verse with a rough translation:

Gernikako arbola
da bedeinkatua,
euskaldunen artean
guztiz maitatua.
Eman da zabal zazu
munduan frutua;
adoratzen zaitugu,
arbola santua.

The tree of Gernika
is a blessed symbol
loved by all the Basque people
with deep love.
Give to all the world
your fruit;
we adore you
sacred tree.

The rest of the song tells the story of the tree.

I am the new year

2007-01-07T14:22:00.000-08:00

Life, I am the new year.
I am an unspoiled page in your book of time.
I am your next chance at the art of living.

I am your opportunity to practice
what you have learned about life
during the last twelve months.

All that you sought
and didn't find is hidden in me,
waiting for you to search it out
with more determination.

All the good that you tried for
and didn't achieve
is mine to grant
when you have fewer conflicting desires.

All that you dreamed but didn't dare to do,
all that you hoped but did not will,
all the faith that you claimed but did not have -
these slumber lightly,
waiting to be awakened
by the touch of a strong purpose.

I am your opportunity
to renew your allegiance to Him who said,
'behold, I make all things new.'

I am the new year.

New Year's Resolutions

2007-01-07T13:52:00.000-08:00

1. Drop more pounds
2. Get in shape (Run more and use free weights)
3. Drink less alcohol and more water
4. Stay away from fried foods and sugar as much as possible
5. Get healthy by taking better care of myself
6. Make and keep doctor appointment's for myself and the family
7. Take a vitamin supplement
8. Read at least 5 books for pleasure
9. Hash more and socialize more
10. Work on personal relationships
11. Continue personal transformation
12. Work on professional relationships
13. Improve my career
14. Save more money
15. Buy a house

Juanes-Another one of my favorite bands

2007-01-07T13:27:00.001-08:00

Sexy Juanes!!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6HwxdLKktq0

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=55swlvN0kPA

MANA Concert-Feb. 24, 2007

2007-01-07T11:58:00.000-08:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gey9s_v_ryE

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9_q6KD2O7iY

Pic

2006-12-10T16:45:00.000-08:00

Finally, I found a decent picture of myself (look to the right) thanks to Pimp Doggie Dog. I just wish that the pic wasn’t so big. Can I make the frame smaller?

Charles Dickens

2006-11-20T10:07:00.000-08:00

It was the best of times, it was the worst of times, it was the age of wisdom, it was the age of foolishness, it was the epoch of belief, it was the epoch of incredulity, it was the season of light, it was the season of darkness, it was the spring of hope, it was the winter of despair, we had everything before us, we had nothing before us, we were all going direct to heaven, we were all going direct the other way--in short, the period was so far like the present period, that some of its noisiest authorities insisted on its being received, for good or for evil, in the superlative degree of comparison only.

A Tale of Two Cities

18 years ago

2006-11-20T09:49:00.000-08:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vK4lyx3Y-Ws

I was a dork 18 years old. You tube rocks!!!

This takes me back when....

2006-11-20T09:28:00.000-08:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pvi2eHNvrow

This takes me back when Steve and I went to the Monsters of Rock concert at Rice stadium.

Am I really too serious?

2006-11-14T20:36:00.000-08:00

Ok, I can be a little too serious! Believe it or not, I used to be the life of the party, the driving force of the group I ran around with. What happen? Not sure. This blog sucks! Was that funny?

We all want to believe…Or do we?

2006-11-07T20:02:00.000-08:00

How do you view the Devil? Do you think of him as a real person who tempts people to do wicked things, or does he merely represent the principle of evil? Is the Devil someone to be feared, or should he be dismissed as nothing more than a superstitious notion or a mythological unreality? Does the word “devil” refer to some abstract destructive force in the universe? Could the term simply be a symbol of the evil traits in humans, as many modern theologians claim?
It is not surprising that mankind is divided on the question of who the Devil is. Imagine how difficult it can be to discover the true identity of someone who is a master of disguise! Particularly is that so if he is determined to remain concealed behind a mask. The Bible describes the Devil as such a personality. Referring to him as Satan, it says: “Satan himself keeps transforming himself into an angel of light”. (2 Corinthians 11:14) Though he is evil, the Devil may present himself as good in order to misguide others. In addition, if he gets people to believe that he simply does not exist, that may suit his purpose even better.
Really, then, who is the Devil? When and how did he come into existence? How does he influence mankind today? What, if anything, can we do to resist that influence?

We all want to believe…Or do we?

Love....

2006-11-06T15:41:00.000-08:00

"Love is unconditional acceptance. That quality is also our essential nature, who we really are. It is love of parents for child; also the non-possessive love of partners; also the caring love for all people that enables forgiveness. It is not the emotional lust of being 'in love' though that may well be in alignment with true love - or unaligned, as in jealousy. It's above energy, though it may be expressed energetically; it's Spirit itself, the nature of God, the quality we share with God; and it is the binding force of the Universe, necessary for all Creation."
—Peter Shepherd

Relationships

2006-11-06T15:23:00.000-08:00

Pause and listen to your instincts and feelings about your relationship as you engage in activities together. If you are feeling unsafe, overly criticized, or very anxious, it is important to pay attention and not make excuses or justifications for your partner’s poor behavior. Are there behavior patterns that the two of you can discuss and change? Or is this behavior an entrenched pattern, and therefore, change is unlikely? Then you will need to consider ending the relationship.

Think about these key points:

•Falling in love makes it easy for judgment to be affected and to be blind to a partner's problems
•It takes at least 3 months to get to know someone and their deep-seated patterns, so it's best for relationships to slow down
•Knowing another person requires seeing him/her in action
•Mutual self-disclosure and intimacy require gradual building of trust and cannot be rushed
•Couples need to share many core values and life goals, as well as some personality qualities and lifestyle preferences
•Observe that you become a better person by being with your partner
•Be great friends
••There is significant mutual respect and a willingness to forgive
•Observe how your partner treats strangers
•Observe the types of friends your partner spends time with regularly
•Observe the behavior and communication patterns in your partner's family
•Ensure your partner has a highly developed conscience that guides his/her personal choices and ensures that he/she thinks of others instead of being self-centered
•Be able to effectively meet each other's needs
•Be capable of and willing to practice commitment

Transformation

2006-10-23T21:18:00.000-07:00

Transformation:

Enhances:
Healing, Growth

Balances/Counters
Resistance to change

The spiritual practice of transformation holds within its wide embrace the personal renewals that come with a spiritual awakening, a conversion, a mystical epiphany, or an enlightenment. It covers the deepening that takes place when we get in touch with our Higher Self or Spirit.

Transformation usually involves the shedding of old ways, especially those that have become burdens. Therefore, no matter who we are, no matter what has already happened to us, no matter what we have done, it is still possible to be and do something new.

With transformation comes healing and wholeness.

"It is not the strongest of the species who survive, not the most intelligent, but those who are the most adaptive to change."
--Charles Darwin

I ache all over....

2006-10-19T16:21:00.000-07:00

I ache all over! Why? Billy's Bootcamp!

Step 2 Kindness/Personal Transformation

2006-10-13T10:29:00.000-07:00

Be kind to people whether they deserve your kindness or not. If your kindness reaches the deserving, good for you; if your kindness reaches the undeserving, take joy in your compassion.
— James Fadiman and Robert Frager in Essential Sufism

Kindness

Enhances:
Generosity

Balances/Counters:
Selfishness

The spiritual practice of kindness encompasses a range of small acts and habits that we know as old-fashioned good manners — saying "please" and "thank you," waiting your turn, lending a helping hand, or cheering someone up with a smile. It applies not just to your relationships with other people. Etiquette in the spiritual life extends to things, animals, plants, and the Earth.

This practice also means being generous with your presence, your time, and your money. Give freely without expecting anything in return. Just do it. Kindness is not a quid pro quo endeavor.

I wouldn’t describe myself as unkind, cruel, or nasty, but I would have to admit that I often miss the mark on this spiritual practice. I have to remember the many times I have been hurt by someone not doing something — the call that didn't come when I was feeling low, the thank you note that never appeared, the missed appointment — but then I have to consider how often I have neglected to act in similar circumstances. Kindness is very susceptible to the sin of omission.

Still, acknowledging that I have missed another's kindness has made me more aware that I want to be kind more consistently. This is one of those situations when a negative experience has a positive outcome.

The Education of Teaching

2006-09-26T19:48:00.000-07:00

Failing organizations are usually over-managed and under-led. Warren G. Bennis

What do teachers want and often aren't getting? Support. Teachers really want support; but instead they are often subjective to inattentive or abusive principals, inappropriate or unfair assignments, inadequate supplies, ad hoc approaches to discipline, insufficient time with other teachers, and insufficient opportunities to grow. Teachers want administrators that are present, positive, and actively engaged in the instructional life of the school, but sadly, principals often fail to meet these expectations. Principals usually succeed in some things but fall short in others. More so than not, principals are usually ineffectual, demoralizing, or even destructive.

My Journey to Personal Transformation

2006-09-24T17:10:00.000-07:00

"When we face our fears and let ourselves know our connection to the power that is in us and beyond us, we learn courage." author unknown

My Journey to Personal Transformation
Step 1
Forgiveness
Enhances: Freedom
Balances/Counters:
Vengefulness

We all know the obvious symptoms that could be relieved by forgiveness — feeling so wounded that we want revenge, constant brooding over a long list of petty grievances, feeling so guilty we don't know how to approach someone we have offended, worry that the hurt could happen again. Bitterness and stubbornness can also be signs that forgiveness is called for, especially when these attitudes are associated with a need to be recognized as the one who is right.
In contrast to these limiting behaviors, which usually erect walls between ourselves and others, forgiveness is freeing. It means that we can move out of our previous position and move on with our lives. Best of all, it enables us to be reconciled with our neighbors and with God so that once again we feel part of the greater community of the spiritual life.

Where to start?

I’m looking truthfully at several hurts I have not been able to forgive. I have identified any associated feelings I may have, such as anger, denial, guilt, shame, or embarrassment. I’m imagining what it would be like to live without feeling these offenses. Then I’m letting them go.
I’m confessing my contribution to the conflict, making amends, and changing some behaviors.

My List:
God: For not making my son perfect and putting too much on my plate.
Me: For being such a blond and for having a baby way too young. For sometimes being critical and judgmental of others. For having my own special needs and deficits.
Amy: For living her life the way she see fit.
Elva: For being herself.
Mom: For being so traditional and not being the perfect mother.
Dad: For relation
Steve: For being too nice and for loving me too much.
Mx Voxx: For trying too hard and micromanaging not trusting her own judgments and decisions.
M7ch88l: oxoxoxoxoxoxoxox
M#r&an: For not being a father to our son.
Mxtxlda: Not supporting M#r&an to be a father to J*r*my.
XaXc9: For being you (more to this but I’ll keep it private)
#re#: For saying really rude remarks about me in front of me and for asking me how much I make in front of other people and really throwing me off and because I think I’m always nice to you.
S$at&&: Because……….

Tell myself that I only just started my journey and I will make plenty of mistakes. Hell, I probably already did somewhere in this posting.

These are my goals for the remainder of the year.

2006-09-24T09:44:00.000-07:00

These are my goals for the remainder of the year.

Shed another 10 pounds.
Read at least 3 books for pleasure.
Train for the Houston Half Marathon faithfully.

Yes, that’s right folks I will run, walk, and/or crawl the Houston Half Marathon in January, 2007. Wish me luck; I’ll need it especially since I sprain my ankle at Ez’s house on Friday by wearing deadly high heels.

Also, if anyone has recommendations for non-fiction reading I will be thankful.

Relaxing

2006-09-23T22:26:00.000-07:00

I finally took much needed time for myself. I booked an appointment at Sensia Studio and Japanese Day Spa and had a 2 hour session which included an aromatherapy facial and a micro dermabrasion treatment. It was relaxing and worth every cent. I think I'm ready to go back to work on Monday.

Unpleasant People

2006-09-23T13:01:00.000-07:00

Some people are just truly unpleasant people. We can’t like everyone. Not everyone will like you. Just the way of the world. I can live with it if you can.

A joke!

2006-09-23T10:58:00.000-07:00

I thought this was too funny not to post! Now don't get upset, it's just a joke!

A man enters a bar and orders a drink.

The bar has a robot bartender.

The robot serves him a perfectly prepared cocktail, and then asks him,
"What's your IQ?"

The man replies "150" and the robot proceeds to make conversation about
global warming factors, quantum physics and spirituality, biomimicry,
environmental interconnectedness, string theory, nanotechnology, and
sexual proclivities.

The customer is very impressed and thinks, "This is really cool."

He decides to test the robot. He walks out of the bar, turns around, and
comes back in for another drink. Again, the robot serves him the
perfectly prepared drink and asks him, "What's your IQ?"

The man responds, "about a 100."

Immediately the robot starts talking, but this time, about football,
NASCAR, baseball, supermodels, favorite fast foods, guns, and Women's
body parts.

Really impressed, the man leaves the bar and decides to give the robot
one more test. He heads out and returns, the robot serves him and asks,
"What's your IQ?"

The man replies, "Errr, 50, I think."

And the robot says... Real slowly,

"So... is... your... party... gonna... nominate... Hillary... for...
President ? ? ?

Breath in, breath out…..

2006-09-05T17:14:00.000-07:00

My life is a little too crazy right now. I’m trying to balance the kids, work, my personal life, relationships, and classes. I’m exhausted and I need a very long vacation (adults only). Maybe I should schedule a day at the spa? I need to somehow make more “me” time. I have managed to get in some exercise. And, I’ve lost a total of 31.5 pounds. Wow that’s a lot! That’s probably the last time I will admit how much I’ve lost.

Just a thought

2006-07-30T18:17:00.000-07:00

I had surgery on Thursday and boy am I in pain. My doctor/surgeon said I would be back on my feet the same day. What a lie. I have been in bed ever since Thursday. I have been walking around the house. Today, my lovely sister took me out for lunch. I was so happy just to get out for a short period of time.

To keep busy and from going crazy, I've been working on school stuff. I'm working on my Masters and I'm taking 9 hours this summer. I'm almost done. I have three finals to take and a few assignments that I need to turn in. I've also watched several movies. I've seen Mysterious Skin, The Motorcycle Diaries, Transamerica, and Under the Tuscan Sun. My favorite was The Motorcycle Diaries. I didn't finish watching Transamerica because I couldn't get into it.

Until tomorrow...

Busy week ahead

2006-07-25T13:38:00.000-07:00

I have a busy week ahead of me:

1. I had three dental appointments on Monday.
2. I pre registered at the hospital for my surgery on Thursday.
3. Wednesday I have two appointments to exam mine and Jeremy eyes.
4. Thursday I have surgery in the morning.
5. I have a doctorÂs appointment on Friday.
6. I also need to take my truck in on Wednesday to get the left back bumper fix.
7. I have a presentation this week.
8. Two papers that are due this week.
9. An interview that I have to conduct and write up a transcript for.
10. And three finals that I need to get ready for next week.
11. I also have two follow up appointments at the dentist's office on Friday.

I wonder what next week will look like.

Life Events

2006-07-20T14:16:00.000-07:00

I’m a very complicated person and because of that some days are enchanted with happiness, irritability, or frustration. I’m always trying to do too much. I can’t help it, it’s just my nature. I don’t waste time feeling sorry for myself, so don’t worry. I like having fun and being carefree but for me that doesn’t come so easily. It’s almost beyond my control. At times I feel as if I carry the world on my shoulders. Why am I going on and on? I guess it’s because of a death in the family and when I loose someone close to me or someone I admired regardless of the relationship, I look for clarification about life and look for answers. I try to cover the conflicts within, conceal the feelings of the moment but all I managed to do is somehow detach myself from the world around me. I cope by balancing my life with discipline and taking control because it’s the only way I know how to stay on track and avoid an emotional crash.

Does anyone else like the Glenn Beck Show?

2006-07-19T05:42:00.000-07:00

I love it.
CNN Headline News: GLENN BECK
7 p.m. ET daily

Reflection

2006-07-18T05:02:00.000-07:00

I do not need to learn about depression from the pages of a book. I have had my own.
The solitary torment of a depressed mind eludes any attempt to make it apprehensible to those who have not experienced it. And even for those of us who have endured those desolate months or years, no matter the generalized similarities of the depression, each of us has suffered uniquely and alone. Neither vivid description nor the empathy of others can pierce the darkness of the long night.
And yet, after depression lifts, it can only be remembered but not retrieved--thank God it cannot be retrieved! Just as physical pain loses its intense reality once it has been eased, the anguish of profound melancholia evades even the most determined attempts at clear perception when its dreadful grip has relaxed.--Sherwin Nuland

Interesting. I couldn't have said it better.

Drinks and a conversation about sex....

2006-07-17T11:18:00.000-07:00

Yesterday I was having drinks will a few good friends. One is getting divorce and we were talking about some of the troubles and conflicts she had to endure over the last ten years. One was sex. She said that during those ten long years she was the one that had to start the process with her husband and that usually she had to do all the work. She also mentioned that she was often turned down by her husband. At that point I think my mouth dropped open. I was speechless for about a minute. I told her that I was sorry and that she had no idea how good sex could be. Can you believe it?

I just couldn't believe it. I have never had sex with a person who didn't worship my body during sex. By no means would I ever say that I have a fabulous body but I do know that when you are with someone that likes or loves you as a person your body shape does not matter and sex should be "Oh my GOD" with both giving and receiving.

Any time that I'm not with the kids you can bet that Steve has them. Sometimes he will meet me at the house and stay until I get home and a lot of the time he will just stay over. Anyways, I was undressing and getting ready to go to bed when I noticed him just staring at me. Of course he is giving me that look. He tells me how beautiful I am and tells me that he can be ready to go at the first sight of me. He tells me all the time that he loves my body and that he thinks I'm beautiful. I swear I try to hate him, but how can I when he is the sweetest person in the world. Finally, I give in and tell him to just come here and fuck me hard. So he did and it was "Oh my God".

My friend is young and beautiful. Mocha skin, tall, slender, smart and I can go on and on. Her husband has no idea how bad he fucked up. It too bad! And I hope my friend has fabulous "fucking" sex.

Counting Crows and Steve

2006-07-14T12:14:00.000-07:00

Counting Crows, They’re coming to the Woodlands in September and I can’t wait. I love the Counting Crows! I think their music is on the bitter-sweet side but that’s why I love them. Although, their music can be sad, it’s simple and honest. I like honesty and I can appreciate when people show emotions and energy in their work. When I listen to their music it makes me think about my surroundings and where my life is at this point. It’s not always easy. I take every opportunity to make sure I reflect on the things that are significant in my life.

So with all that said, I would like to take this opportunity to thank someone very dear in my life. I would like to thank Steve for being my best friend and for being such a great father to our children. I want to thank him for allowing me to be honest about who I am and for loving me unconditionally. Thanks for giving me the space and the opportunity to figure out who I am and knowing that for me it’s an on going process.

Jeremy

2006-07-11T14:35:00.000-07:00

Cute! Right? I think so.

On Saturday, Steve, Justin, Jeremy and myself went to the Astor's game. We had so much fun. In the picture above, Jeremy my youngest son caught a home run practice ball. He was so excited! He told me catching a ball was his mission for the day and he did it. I think it's neat!

I can't sleep!

2006-07-03T03:06:00.000-07:00

I can’t sleep! I haven’t been able to sleep for about a week. I get some sleep but not much. I think I’m going to give up drinking. I’m not sure for how long. A day. A week. Let’s see how long I will last without a drink. I think I mostly want to give it up because I really want to loose for weight. I’m down about 26 pounds but I am far from where I want to be. I would love to loose another 10 before I go back to work.

One way highway

2006-07-01T20:10:00.000-07:00

Tell me how can a man and a woman have a relationship that is managed and driven only by one member of the relationship (the male)? What happened to “friends” with benefits? When it’s mostly causal do we have to give up dinners, drinks, or hanging out? And sex! Why is it a one-way street? Why can’t it be a mutual agreement? Enough sex to satisfy both parties. Fuck the one-way street! I guess most people would think that I am one who is looking for a serious relationship. Not really, I'm just looking for one that has mutual respect for one another. A relationship where both parties can be dependable. A relationship that I can actually call the other a friend. I know that my current obligations are not ideal for a long-term relationship or a real commitment because my children need and depend on me. And I know that the unusual circumstances surrounding my oldest son really don’t allow me to have a fair chance. I think the last relationship that I was in (like all the rest) was a bad mix of funk! I was stupid! But I’m moving on with my head up and putting it behind me. I do think I need therapy. The one thing that sucks about all of this is the fact that I will have to postpone trying a blowjob technique that I read about on a very popular web site.

Careful! Comment if you like but remember to be kind.

Finally

2006-06-26T20:22:00.000-07:00

I finally received my lap top back yesterday. I'm really busy at the moment so a real post will just have to wait a couple of more days. 3 more days and summer school is over. I’ve been really busy!

Work can really stress me out! I just recommended retention for about 13 students. Some of our students have such sad little lives. Sometimes, I wish I could take some of them home with me.

I think we should have laws about parenting. Too many people have kids and don’t support them properly. There are far too many kids growing up in a single parent household, a household where all the decisions about the child are being made by one parent. I know first hand that being a parent is hard, but come on! It breaks my heart to see and hear child in forester care. I can’t stand to see children come to school without supplies, smelling dirty, hungry, and unloved. I wish I could save them all! I wish I had more hours in my day! Ok, enough!

Crash

2006-06-06T09:49:00.000-07:00

My lap top crashed last night. Any ideas where I can take it to fix it? I would do it myself but I don't have that much time on my hands.

When a subject is highly controversial.....

2006-06-03T10:31:00.000-07:00

“When a subject is highly controversial... one cannot hope to tell the truth. One can only show how one came to hold whatever opinion one does hold. One can only give one's audience the chance of drawing their own conclusions as they observe the limitations, the prejudices, the idiosyncrasies of the speaker.”-Virginia Woolf

The letter V

2006-05-22T17:24:00.000-07:00

1. Vacation: I need one.

2. Volupty: Because I like to give and receive sexual pleasure.

3. V: sign for peace or victory

4. Roman numeral 5. I'm the 5th of 6 kids in my family.

5. Vagina: g-spot. Mine is nicely trimmed because I care enough to keep it neat.

6. Validity: I believe we all should be trustworthy.

7. Victoria: Me---Winner/Conqueror, mother, friend, sister, educator, simple yet complex.

4 more days until the school year is over!!!!

2006-05-19T06:45:00.000-07:00

Just 4 more days until this school year is over. This year really sucked hard. I'm really looking forward to the summer. I wish I wasn't coordinating summer school. Why didn't I just say no?

What should I write about? I need to be inspired.

2006-05-16T15:50:00.000-07:00

New at this!

2006-05-15T21:08:00.000-07:00

Excuse my blog! I'm new at this. Give me a couple of weeks and it will be at least 2 times better than it currently is.

2006-05-15T14:54:00.000-07:00

adopt your own virtual pet!